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3/31/09 { 3/31/2009 10:42:00 PM }

I DON'T KNOW OKAY?
I haven't come up with any answers with the questions of the world.

My head and my heart are battling everyday. I tried. I cant. I want it. I cant have it cos i have something here that i shouldn't be holding on to because its almost nothing to me now.

On deck:
John Legend- Everybody knows
Death Cab for Cutie-Crooked Teeth

3/27/09 { 3/27/2009 11:46:00 PM }

This is my second blog for the evening.

I wonder if anyone reads my blog entries. {?}

Ive been browsing pages from Livejournal to grab some icons. Actually 28% of my database are pilled up with icons. I dont know, it's like a disorder to me. Ive been "collecting" them ever since.

I'm speechless.

On deck:
The Ting Ting's
Coldplay
Dave Matthews Band
Stacie Orrico
Tamia

{ 3/27/2009 09:49:00 PM }

I dont think i want this anymore.
I'm giving up on this curse. I want a better one. The one that wont often make me carve question marks on my mind.
It's hard dealing with inconsiderate and immature coconut shells and maybe this is the reason why im giving up.
I know theres no such thing as a perfect relationship but what im having right now isnt healthy anymore.
I need compromise.

3/26/09 { 3/26/2009 09:19:00 PM }

CONGRATULATIONS TO THE GRADUATES OF 2009!

I'll miss my batchmates and my alma mater (haha.)

Keep in touch!

3/23/09 { 3/23/2009 09:09:00 PM }

The hardest part of saying good-bye is having to do it again every single day. Every day we face the same truth; that life is fleeting. That our time here is short. And to honor the fallen, we must live our own lives well.

3/17/09 { 3/17/2009 07:50:00 PM }

YOU CANT ALWAYS HAVE EVERYTHING
You cant always change your past and work it out for the present.
There are things that are impossible to do and keep especially if you let this things go because your already hanging on to something new which you think is better.
And even how hard you try to get those things back you're still not sure that you can cos maybe those things that you left behind found something else that would keep themselves busy.
"And in my life there's a love I put aside, cause I was busy loving something else So for every little thing you hold on to, you've got to let something else go.
How I wish I, wish I'd done a little bit more Now " shoulda woulda coulda" means I'm out of time. Cos "shoulda woulda coulda" cant change your mind. And i wonder, wonder what I'm gonna do "shoulda woulda coulda" are the last words of a fool "

3/15/09 { 3/15/2009 05:22:00 PM }

I never had the chance to tell you how much i miss you. Or, you never gave me a chance. Or, i had the chance but i didn't take the opportunity to express every single feeling for you because I was afraid.

I hope you'll be able to read this.
Screw my subconscious it's all in here now.
Now you know. And i'm sorry if i have to do this. I just have to. I have to let you know and i dont care where this goes. What's important to me is that you already know.

3/11/09 { 3/11/2009 02:18:00 PM }

***

I dont know how to start this letter because my mind is filled up with so much thoughts that i cant put into words. First of all I want to thank you for being a part of my life. I'm so lucky that i met someone like you who made my life colorful in simple ways. I want to thank you for the priceless memories that we've shared. I will never forget those. I would like to thank you for accepting me, beig with me sometimes and most of all for loving me. You've been a part of my life and you will always be. I will never forget you, your love for me and our memories together. Always remember that I'm always here no matter what. Walang iwanan as i said.

But the world does not permit us, our relationship. You and I are against the world. Even though I try, I can because I am in that world. I am a part of it. We cant be together first, because I have to and I need to because I love them, I hope you'd understand that I tried to fight for our relationship to the point that I way grounded and emotionally abused. I didnt tell you this before because I dont want to think of it because I know you have your own problems, and I dont want to be a burden o you. I sacrificed a lot for you because I love you so much more than you've ever know and It hurts me so bad because we were not given a chance to develop what we have for each other. That hurts me a lot cos I know we have so much to give but we cannot. I cannot and i'm sorry.Second, there are things that i ave learned lately... and the past ssue that I cried over. You told me that It was just a rumor. But as I can see and what my reliable sources tell me, It was just a rumor. But as I can see and what my reliable sources tell me. It is all true. *** I gave you a chance befpre but you denied it. If you oly knew that I am willing to accept you, but you lied to me and what you did was immoral. Sorry, but I cant take it. As time flies that were together. I had a lot of disappointments on you. ***, ou have a potential, use it wisely, dont waste it because as I can see you still dont know what you want i life you have different priorities. I know it and I can feel it. I dont need to elaborate it. I hope you know what im saying.

*** we cant be together. Its not that im not ready but this decision that I am making will help us be mature and grow. I am making this responsible decisio for the good of bothe parties, ot just for me. I dont want to be unfair to you because I cant give my time to you because of my condition right now and this ime is importat in a relationship to work out.

This decision is hard for me. But I cant stay any longer. Ive totally changed, this relationship changed me.

I know its hard for us to be friends but I am hoping that we will still be. Eve if im not your girl anymore I am always here for you if you need me. Walang iwanan. Im leaing all the bitterness behind. Always remember that I loved you truly. You were myy first. I will ever forget the times weve been together.

I hope that this wouldnt change the way we are when I first met you.

I hope that things will work out fine now that were together.

If youre happy then i'll be happy seeing you that way. I hate to see you suffer or undergoing hardships so im letting you go. I kow that without me.. You'll be happier.

I cant believe that this will happen

My desire for you is to be happy. I wish that you want the same way for me too...

Our situation right now doesnt make me happy anymore. I am not happy. Its not healthy. I will be happier f we part ways.. so no one will suffer...

I know that this decision will make us happy in time..

Thank you for everything

I loved you

Goodbye.

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3/10/09 { 3/10/2009 08:14:00 PM }

Since i'm supra bored i'll be sharing my playlist. The songs that will always be with me especially when i stocked in a desert island. Here are some...

Chasing Pavements- Adele i'm loving British pop now a days. I dont know they sound psychedelic and really upbeat!

Hold me down- Motion City Soundtrack "You're the echoes of my everything,You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.You're the laziness of afternoon,You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.You're the leaky sink of sentiment,You're the failed attempts I never could forget.You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..How will I break the news to you?"
*MCS has been my favorite band since The Goo Goo Dolls. Though old school is still cool, MCS has this different tune that caught my heart when i first heard of them. I also like Modern Chemistry and Autographs & Apologies

Inevitable- Anberlin This song has the sweetest lyrics ever! "I wanna be your last first love" That's like LAST FIRST LOVE! It's really really rare to find someone who'll be your LFL. Well i hope you guys find one.

Ordinary People- John Legend I only like a few songs from John Legend. I like those mellow sounding ones like Ordinary People and Everybody knows. I can relate to his lyrics and the beat is just.. Awesome.

Nothing Lasts Forever- Maroon 5 well, nothing really lasts forever. It's really hard to say if there's really a forever so be careful of what you say to your mushy partner. Better yet, ever tell your partner that "forever is not enough" duh. It's like a cheesy phrase. Hahaha I bet the composer of this song never believed i forever.

Forever is so gas-gas na! =))

So You Can Cry- Neyo there there, this isnt really a popular song by Neyo. But if you're sort of a bitter person and the significant other in your life just got dump. This is the song for you. "I'll ask the stars to shine away from you so you can cry"

Wonderwall- Oasis i told you i love old school. I'm praying hard for Oasis to have a comeback. This song is like the song for all seasons.

Brighter than Sunshine- Aqualung "Let the rain fall i dont care. I'm yours and suddenly your mine"

The Scientist- Coldplay forever, Coldplay and i'll be rushing to the ticket booths if they'll be playing here in the Philippines. OMG Coldplay.. Their my second favorite band from MCS. =)) kayyy :P

If You See Kay- The Script my third favorite band. They've got rap-rock on their genre that i find unique and cool. Who raps in rock music? The Man Who Cant Be Moved made my mom buy their album.

**i'll continue some other time haha

3/5/09 { 3/05/2009 07:37:00 PM }

Ciao ! Its been a while since i last blogged. So in about a few days i'll be graduating from High School and it's like the best feeling ever. (I'm exaggerating) A while ago we had our graduation pictorial. Mean helped me do my make-up.

Anyway i'm being a derelict again. I've been busy with my Facebook playing Fashion Wars and Pet Society. Why dont you try it?

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