4/30/09
{ 4/30/2009 10:14:00 PM }
This might be the last time you'll hear of him.
I cant believe that i'm saying this but for the past few weeks, i feel lost. I know it's my idea, it's your fault. Well some are mine. We ended up being in our separate ways and i thought it would be better for the both of us. Somehow, yes. Right now, as i go back to everything that we've been through. I want to thank you for always being there for me. I loved you and i guess i still do. Sometimes, i want you back. Sometimes i dont. Wondering if i could find someone better as i start a new journey. Every night i think about every thing we've been through. Wishing that i saved all those sweet messages you sent me. I wish i took the risk to talk to you when we were still together. I wish i told you how i felt and how you were bringing me down every time we have an argument. I wish you understood me, my situation around my family and friends. I guess you never did. You were only thinking about yourself. Its like, you always want it your way. How could you be so inconsiderate and selfish? You never learned how to compromise. Sorry if i told lies to you. I just didnt know how to tell you knowing you'd get mad. You barely listen to me and it drew me apart from you. Tomorrow, it's supposed to be our 6th month. Well, i wish we had more. But we need to grow in order to be better for each other. I need to fix myself as i enter to college. And you too. I know you have problems and i still promise that i'll be there when you need me, or not. I'm still here to be your friend. But right now, the both of us have to move on. Let go of each other first and see how far it would take us.
Goodluck with your life. Be safe. Study hard okay?
I'll miss you!
