I live light years from you. I'm a music connoisseur, an artist, a foodie, a lack of grace dancer, a frustrated singer, an over-rated actress. I'm somebody when you're nobody I'm unpredictable when you're dumbfounded I'm the war in your head vs. your heart I'm amazing even though you're asleep I'm the train that will never keep you waiting & I'm the only one who'll follow you into the dark.

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5/27/09 { 5/27/2009 09:36:00 PM }

School is cool.
It really is. It's nice planning what you'll be wearing the next day and look forward to meet new friends. The week hasn't ended yet but i tell you, even how hard it seems to cope up with everyday, i still look forward to it. Just like yesterday my blockmates and I went to Pizza Hut to have lunch. I ordered for the SP meal (i dont what SP stands for) and it took 2 hours for me to have my order and so, instead of dining in and since my blockmates are done eating, i brought it to school and ate it before the last subject. So not cool. I wont eat there again.

We didnt have our BASICOM again yesterday. I dont know if the professor is lost or what but all we know is that we are in the right room.

I went home late yesterday. I arrived around 7:30 in the evening. I was with Ivy and Pam we rode the jeepney. It was scary because it was already dark and there are a lot of people that couldnt be trusted. You know what I mean. It's a good thing that we were all safe. I'm tired of commuting. I want and need a driver right this instant. It would be cool though!

So that was yesterday. As for today, everything's ordinary. Ate lunch with Kams and Car did our HW at the LRC Ext and then i went to McDonalds to order my favorite oreo caramel sundae but too bad they didnt have it. So instead of going somewhere else i rode the FX going home. I was planning to go to Midtown but i have an appointment with our television at 4 o'clock. So I went home and then here I am now, telling you the story.


BEFORE I FORGET! (BIF)
Last Monday, our professor in Algebra was discussing our lesson. I was bored and so me and Den were talking and talking and talking until she told me that she's been to Indonesia. I asked her "madaming Jai Ho?" she said "oo" and so, i started dancing Jai Ho. Hahaha. Then the prof called everyones attention! Good thing she didnt specify who were those persons that she was referring to. But i knew that it was me and Den cos we were noisy and i was dancing. Hahahaha

I wont dance Jai Ho in Algebra class again.


I'm sorry if its random. I'm tired. I'll sleep now.

5/23/09 { 5/23/2009 07:58:00 PM }

I survived my first week in school. There were times that our professors didn't show up in class. (One hour break! Yehey!) I also met a lot of new people outside my block. It was such a good week and I'm looking forward to next week's class.

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I had a blatant dream the other night, i couldn't remember everything but a part of it involves someone. Who else? Yes, you again. I dont know why my mind isnt fed up yet when it should be. Why do I always miss you? Why do you cross my mind everyday? Can i just Ctrl+Alt+Delete you from my memory? Every time i go home after school i always wish that you'll be there across the street, crossing just to pick me up. And yes, it is such a stupid idea! I know you wont be doing that to me anytime soon. I really hope that we could still give it a shot. But whatever God's plan is, i'll be more than willing to follow what he wants for us.


Like what i always say, i still believe in us.


Just take care of yourself okay?

5/20/09 { 5/20/2009 09:24:00 PM }

I can't believe that i'm already in college! Its so surreal! It's like yesterday i just graduated from High School and now i'm in college. Oh wow.
I'm really not in the mood to blog right now since my head is aching. Maybe i should get some rest.

I'll blog soon.
Btw, we had our first college homework. Cool?
So not cool cos it's FILIP11

5/18/09 { 5/18/2009 09:54:00 PM }

CAN YOU LIKE STAY OUT OF MY WORLD FOR ONE DAY? JUST ONE DAY? PLEASE?
Since you're a complete stranger to me already can you like go on and care about yourself and never meddle with the things i do and the people i know?

{ 5/18/2009 12:17:00 AM }

5/17/09 { 5/17/2009 09:13:00 PM }

I CANT WAIT ANY LONGER!

5/15/09 { 5/15/2009 11:19:00 PM }

TWITTER KILLS MY BOREDOM! HOORAAAH!

5/11/09 { 5/11/2009 06:10:00 PM }

Breaking up and moving on is such a struggle.

Everybody's changing.........
Most of them changed for the worst.
Is it bad? If i care so much for someone who you pushed away for many times and now wanting to make up for all the wrong things that you've done. I dont believe its karma. But i believe that im the one to blame for his actions right now. He's totally not himself! I dont know him anymore! The one i used to love is out at night partying, drinking and fkng hell smoking. MAKES ME SAD knowing all of this. I used to hide stuff from him when we were still together. I did stuff that he didnt want me to do. I broke a few rules and thats one reason why i decided to break up with. I promised myself not to blog about him and how i feel anymore. But this is the only way i know that could shake it all away.



I just want you to know that i still care. Whether you like it or not, i'll always do. I'll be here, silently because i can feel that you no longer want me around you. For now. And i hope one day, you'll be running back to me. I'll be fighting for you, silently. But i'll be moving on too. I can do those at the same time. It's sounds impossible but its not. Besides, you dont care how i live my life right now. It's fine. Its okay even if you dont appreciate anything i say or do. I'm used to it. Dont worry about me, i'll be better that fine. It's okay if you avoid me. It's okay if your with someone else. Because i know that one day you'll be coming back to me. I still believe in us and i wish we worked things out. I know it's too late, i dont care. Maybe you'll be back.

But i'm also tired of wanting you back. I want to stop but i dont know where to begin. Well, if the old you is back then maybe this inconsistent mind would function better and choose the right things properly. Maybe we're not for each other. Maybe we are. Nobody knows. But whoever you are right now. I want to be there for you. It's okay if you push me away. I'm still here. Even if it kills me. But once i find someone who'll be there for me, who'll appreciate all the things i do. Then i'll stop. I'll force myself to stop because i'm nothing to you right now. I'm just an old flame thats now an ash.

I know there are people who have given up on you. I dont want to be like them because i'm not. But no one knows what the future brings. It will always remain uncertain. But i still want you to be a part of my life. Being friends is fine because thats where everything starts and well, ends too. But if you dont like any of my ideas then it's okay.

Thank you.



P.S, Don't worry, i'm fine. I'll stop thinking about you and being "emo". It's not the way i'd like to live my life.

5/10/09 { 5/10/2009 08:42:00 PM }

Happy Mothers day to your sexy momma! Make her proud!

5/9/09 { 5/09/2009 09:07:00 PM }

I have a lot on my mind now.
I just dont know where to begin.

I'm wondering..
Do you miss me?
Do you still think about me, at night?
Do you want me back? For good?

Only you can answer these questions. But we dont talk anymore. & even if we do, we avoid having conversations related to our past. And so, i will never know the answer.

Sighs. I miss the hand that i used to hold so tight andthose big brown eyes.


Three words: I miss you, and yes it still doesnt change ANYTHING.

{ 5/09/2009 01:00:00 PM }

One of the sweetest and tear jerking song i've heard

Make you feel my love- Adele

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry;
I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love

5/5/09 { 5/05/2009 11:03:00 PM }

Nothing is permanent in this world.
People get fed up and leave or forget about you. That's the way it is and it shouldn't be that way. You cant always judge anyone for what they've done. Because people change.
This evening i realized that:
True friends, don't leave you especially when they know you need them.
True friends, don't change the topic of conversation especially if there's something wrong or what. They'll listen to you through whatever.
True friends, are right beside you and assure you that you're fine especially when you feel like giving up. They stand right there, guiding and helping you stand up from whatever downfall your going through.

As for me, i know who my true friends are and know who aren't. And i hope to find more as i enter a new chapter in my life.
I hope you become a better and a wiser person as you bum yourself to death. Thank you for uh, maybe everything. I'm sorry and i feel sorry for you. I wish you love and hope you change for the better!

On deck
I wish you love- Rachel Yamagata

{ 5/05/2009 06:59:00 PM }

5/3/09 { 5/03/2009 08:08:00 PM }

Cause I’m not your princess, this ain’t a fairytale

I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat
me well

I had the most heartbreaking dream a while ago. I dreamnt of you. Oh not you.
But you. We went somewhere, i think its your house. You held my hand and you
didnt want to let go. I was asking you why are you holding my hand and you didnt
say a thing. You showed me your place. There were a lot of stairs. We went up
and down and up and down. You introduced me to someone. And then my mom woke me
up .

5/1/09 { 5/01/2009 12:00:00 AM }

Thank you :)